Today

I realized that I have to live my life like a recovering addict.  My addiction is food and it is so hard to overcome sometimes.  I stopped drinking and smoking over 10 years ago but food has always been there. We have to eat to live but, I would say most of my life has been I lived to eat.  So now I avoid driving by fast food places as much as possible to limit my opportunity of getting my fix. I know that some people don't see food as being as addictive as say drugs, but if you look at the effects on the life of the addict it looks similar.  I know that I would stash cash away so that I could by food without it being on my card so my wife could see.  I would eat in private so no one would know how much I had eaten. I went out of my way to stop and get specific fast food, because even though I tried it all I have one very specific favorite one.  If I had not changed my eating habits or more to the point my food addiction it would have killed me.  It caused a struggle between me and my family because I could not physically do anything with them.  I was stuck in a hole with what felt like no hope of escape, but now thanks to some true support from certain people in my life I am seeing the way out.  I know that freedom is real and now I am living in it.  I focus on where I am going now instead of where I was stuck before.  Is the craving still there OH YEAH!! But, I at least understand that it has to be treated like an addiction.  So to today's thought is simple.....Be honest with yourself about your struggle and make the moves to get free...Today is the first day of your future.